Hello Violetabg,
Thank you frist for posting a question on this message board.
I wanted to say this to you as I was reading your question. I felt the greatest love and devotion to life from your typo, in other words. You have such love within your heart and you have and allways gave out so much of it ot other people around you and not really turned anyone away due to the fact how lovely and how open hearted you are as a person. So that needed to be said
I felt that you hold something within you and without you knowing what you are doing here that is casuing you not to find true happines that you are searching for within this life time. I felt you need to let go of the fear of not knowng if you are ever going to find the true honest person who will fulfill your life purpose, I felt it should happen, but firstly my love you need to let that fear go of thinking and feeling you might be alone, as you wont be alone. LET GO OF FEAR THEN IT WILL SLOWLY manifest itselft in to your life. This might sound a bit simple but it is how it is and how things work. Happiness is there, but its going be some time till this happens in your life. I felt you have been let down at least twice from another person/s if this is correct, then don't let that bother you or even think about it as this will slow down the positive progress that you are looking for. I also felt that the more times you are thinking about this the more time it's going take for it to pop in to your life. So please try to stop worying about this and let things happen in it;s due course.
All The Best
Vas Andreas